Talking to Myself

I don't think I should be honest with people, they just get upset and hurt and I still feel as bad, nothing helps being honest. I just never have nice things to say, I'm full of negativity. It's better off if I talk to myself really. My suicide attempt is coming up soon anyways, haven't cut or attempt anything in 7 weeks. I have no date set but I'm gonna try it again soon. I can see myself dying or ending up in hospital yet again. I don't want hospital, I don't want life. I have nothing anymore, family doesn't count. Nobody does.