Hello there! I've been tired all day so I thought what a better way to finish it off than to put music on and blog.
I finally got the train for the first time on my own, no safety plan to stop me. CAMHS said it was all okay so I i got to go to a group 20 miles away on the train. It was so great honestly. I'm not sure why I've been feeling so tired because I haven't been doing much to be honest. I guess it's just the fatigue from depression itself along with the constant numbness. I really need a coffee to fix that, along with exercise.
We can't have what we want though so I'm gonna get used to this fatigue and embrace it like a sloth. No matter how much sleep I get I'm never fully rested. It's always oversleeping or under sleeping. Both are awful. I have a new bed so I thought that would improve sleep however it hasn't.
I'm starting my Math GCSE on Friday which is exciting, I'm 17 and the class will have 20 year olds up to 50 year olds, hopefully some smoke so I can socialise that way because it's how I can bond. Other than that I'm pretty awkward lol. I need this to start my College course In September which is HSC level 2. I'm so excited about that as it should help me become a Registered Nurse. Following my dreams <3
I'm only a message away! Don't hesitate to contact me :)
Hello! I’m the author and creator of this website. I post the blogs here and upload content. I thought I’d create this so you know me better and see that I’m not some robot!
My name is Josef, I’m seventeen years old and I live in Ireland. I’ve been blogging for about a year. It’s the main that’s helped me cope with life.
I’ve been at the lowest points in my life which you can read here. My lowest is probably admitted to a psychiatric unit for suicide attempts. My highest is probably laughing at something random.
I’m currently diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and developmental trauma. I may be diagnosed with Autism too in the future as well as Personality Disorder. It’s a long battle I’ve faced but I’ve decided to share it publicly to help and inspire others that Depression Will Fade.
I hope this clears some things up and helps you feel less hopeless while reading this, just keep in mind that it does get better. That’s really cliche to say however it’s very true and I’m living proof it does get better.
Going almost 8 months without self harm is a huge achievement for me, I feel great about it. The thing that has helped me do this and break apart from self harm and suicide.
What would we do without music? For me personally I wouldn’t be alive without it! It has helped me heal through trauma and cope with mental illness at night especially.
Having earphones in with your favourite band or artist really makes me feel less alone if I connect with the lyrics from the song. When I had nobody i put my music on and deeply relaxed with certain genres.
My favourite music would be either Bob Marley or Linkin Park, those two artists aren’t similar at all but they both put me in a better mood when I listen to them. However I do listen to all kinds of music such as country and rap. Not every 17 year old likes country music haha!
What are your favourite songs? Contact me here or below with a comment.
I'm hoping to make some new improvements to my website, hopefully more colours, less negativity but still honest about things, just less triggering really!
Please do let me know what you all think by contacting me privately or publicly commenting, hoping I can make this site better while keeping it real and honest too!
That's all for now, don't hesitate to message me :)
It's been far too long since I've posted here! I have so much to update everyone on!
I'm starting my maths course again next Friday which is so exciting! I'm travelling on my own via train for once! The safety plan to stop me from committing suicide has been reduced. I haven't self harmed in 6 months or attempted suicide since July! I've been doing amazing and it's because of distracting myself. This new year I'm determined to accept myself and think more positively, easier said than done however! ;)
I'm not sure whats happened inside my head to change this, it has been gradual and slow however. I'm thinking it's my medications that are allowing me to feel some sort of happiness. I've learned to not take it for granted.
I'm going to make my website more colourful and add more positivity that it's clearly lacking!
I'm only an email away <3
Who Am I?
I’m a 19 year old male that suffers from various mental illnesses.