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I can't be honest to anyone without them overreacting or being negative about it. It's never positive, when I open my fat mouth to people I always regret it and then feel bad I told them, maybe I need to keep things bottled up inside? I don't even know anymore really. I'm paranoid everyone is out to get me, sometimes I don't feel safe and have to check my own room just to feel safe, that isn't right or normal :(
July is here, my final month alive. I haven't posted here in a while I just forgot really. I broke up with my girlfriend and stopped texting my friends, I'm stopping social contact with them to make it easier for me to kill myself. I don't even fear death as I have attempted so many times. I like the idea of it so much, just non existant. I bet that I'll pussy out at the last minute but my next attempt will be easier to perform and more discreet around others. I have to get rid of the numbness but the last time I tried getting rid of it I ending up in ER/A&E for a good few hours. I think suicide is the only way now to get rid of it. Bit ironic really.  |
Who Am I?I’m a 20 year old male that suffers from various mental illnesses.
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