Loneliness

I've been feeling lonely the past few weeks, I have a girlfriend. However I still feel so alone. I just can't shake off that feeling of lonliness and isolation. I'm on my own now, I've learned to do what I shouldn't, bottle up feelings. If your reading this you should know that doing this is not right and talking is far better! However I, am a huge hyprocrite. Everyday I stay in bed and debate and argue to myself wjhether or not to get up and live on, I am so so close to going back to the train tracks to finish it all off. I really want to do this and It's the only thing left I look forward to.

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