It's Monday, the start of the week for most of us. A fresh start to do things new or differently. This week will be the same as last week and the week before that. Counselling on a Tuesday, the train to my group on Wednesday, group on Thursday, Maths on Friday.
I really dislike repetitive things like this, It makes me want to end it. I get suicidal doing the same things over and over, I'm not sure why I relate it to suicide but I do for some reason anyways. It's pretty strange how my brain connects them and thinks that suicide is the only way out for me. That's not true however.
I'm really looking forward to Wednesday so i can get the train, it's relaxing when I read my book and have a coffee on the train to see my friends in the mental health group I attend on Wednesday morning. I do get lonely quite a lot especially on the train because of the isolation and my social anxiety doesn't allow me to talk to others very much.
Monday is really hopeless for me because I feel that I don't have enough strength and motivation to get through the week itself. However taking each day as it comes is good enough and works for me.
Side note: my new beanie arrives in the mail tomorrow so I'm pretty excited for that! (slight beanie obsession)
Hope your week is going well, I'm always an email away or you can comment below to let me know how your week is currently going!
Who Am I?
I’m a 19 year old male that suffers from various mental illnesses.