Feeling Low

So its a Tuesday night and I’m feeling pretty numb and hopeless as usual. I’ll masturbate at night, then have my last smoke of the day then go to bed and put on music, feeling depressed and numb in my usual routine. Not brushing my teeth or washing my face before bed.
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I have the train tomorrow to my ASD group. But for now I’m feeling really low and I always put myself into these moods and not helping it at all with sad songs. It just feels necessary for this mood.

I feel really suicidal especially at night because it gives me so much time to think and stare at the ceiling and night time is when I post a new blog in hope somebody reaches out to talk to me. I think night is the worst for me because I have no distractions, I’m tired but that doesn’t stop me from overthinking, in fact I feel that fatigue makes it worse.
I hope your day is going much better than mine guys!

Don’t hesitate to contact me if you have questions or your feeling lonely just comment below or email me here

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