A Big Day Tomorrow

Tomorrow is the day I find out if I get into college or not, I've been so excited for so long! I really wanted to do this for ages. It's given me hope but they know I'm suicidal so tomorrow they're going to decide if I can go to the course or not. If they let me go I'll be alright but if they say no I'll kill myself and refuse mess and treatment in my counselling sessions.

I don't even care about it anymore to be honest, there's only one other boy in my class and the rest are girls, the gender I feel. All the girls will have known each other by now while I'm not allowed to go to college yet because I'm suicidal. I hope they say yes tomorrow